17.10.09

17.10.09


It would appear more of the Gargoyles have inserted themselves into the prison system.

Of all Monsters these are the ones that prefer this environment, the dank corners, and the high walls, the towers which give them a special sight and air at night.

The fact that we do not see them as Gargoyles in the prison setting is that they are in a place of Power for them and our retinas see not the danger and influence that their Evil peddles. What we think we see are system changers of those that in most cases do not appreciate the workers on the floor, or as Communism would have the Proletariats.

Simples Proles these Gargoyles believe of us as they go about making prison something that it is not and was never meant to be, laughing whilst the Evil energy does not have to be managed by them but added to the yoke that us on the floor carry and in time turn against each other.

Change by disintegration of communion or companionship.

Change without the power of the ones that actually do the work is a clever and not often seen or recognized form of system change or management.

And people think that gargoyles are only stone idolatry based high on archaic buildings.

Seen many lately?

My point exactly – they are not on the corners of Churches here or even now in the Eastern Block they are aware this is their time, a time where we all fail to see that Monsters in various environments are not seen any more as the belief has faded or indeed gone.

How can you see something your brain and eyes no longer accept or even understand?

You don’t.

So to you reading this should explain the power shift.

I only realized the extent of this power shift the other day when I railed aggressively against a fellow worker, a friend, when the underlying issue was not his but a change from the Ivory Towers that understand not the pressure of maintaining the true Evil and Danger that society has given to us to manage, to look after and to ensure their rights are served above our own.

At this time I began to see the gargoyle in the corner grinning, not the one that had made the changes but the shape shifting glimmer of one watching with a certain mirth the damage he/she was creating.

These Monsters had achieved the outcome they wanted, us fighting against each other, though the glimmering grinning Gargoyle disappeared annoyed when we Proles worked our issues through and became one again.

One of these Monsters may be gone for now though the over all plan remains the same and the division of us on the floor is it’s basic and powerful plan.

I am no fool (at this specific moment), I personally know how much energy and emotion this saps out of me and therefore I imagine out of others that in ways think or intrinsically know the same thing, perhaps in different ways though the effect is the same and I see good people drop by the wayside daily,



Through no fault of their own and I hold nothing against them for they are no doubt smarter than I.




I do not think at this point we will win as the game has been stacked for far too long and we who know how to manage and safely run a prison funnily enough are the ones that do not have the voice or power, but this will not stop me from trying to do the best for those around me, staff and prisoners alike.





The Best.





‘They’ think we do not know this or practice it anymore.

The Best takes a lot from an individual.

It takes sacrifice.

Ask my wife, ask those who used to know me, look at me now as opposed to then.


When asked why I continue, “why not leave?”




When for most of your life you’re told you’ll end up in prison as a you’re a lowlife and no good at anything (my teachers) and you’re able to get into the heads of those who have locked their Demons away for eons, when you're better at risk assessment than most including experts in mental health as well as maintaining their safety with reference to physical, emotional, intra-psychic, spiritual and mental health –




You keep going.






The Gargoyles have seen me and I have seen them, we both know we represent opposing sides and battle will be met without quarter,





What they fail to realize is that I am close to winning what ever decision I make.








This on several levels should at least cause a ripple.











The Grey Madness, Gollum, his 6000 year old Dog and The 6ft White Wabbit.